Again

My hands were numb and trembling while I am driving to my usual GP clinic. Heartbeat and blood pressure is elevated. 137/75 was the reading I took at home beforehand. I am on adrenalin-high. I curse the damn traffic lights for turning green too slowly. 'Don't puke.. please don't puke..or else I got to stop beside the road with the hazard lights on and puke in public.' I wished I had an emergency beacon so that I can speed all the way through the horrendous traffic. The throbbing pain in my head is going nowhere.

The doctor barely took five minutes for diagnosis and prescribed me with a strong medication for migraine. Gave me an advise that freaked me out.

'If the migraine is getting more frequent or worst, better get your head scanned... cause headaches are internal, I can't see it. Might be a tumour..' After that word 'tumour', I don't remember what he said. 'Diulo..gonna die young.. still so many things not done' It never occured to me that I might have to do a head MRI. I thought it only happens in House M.D. Touchwood.

For that amount of time, charging me RM25 seems pretty lucrative. You're the man, Dr.

The fear of this migraine concealing a bigger, more serious illness scares the guts out of me. I will have to monitor the frequency and intensity of the recurring pain closely. Food intake and blood pressure needs to be scrutized. I have to ban the coffee/tea/caffeine and try my best to avoid the glaring sun. An attack like this is enough to incapacitate for a whole day.

I can feel the sound waves create by the person who is sitting opposite and talking on the mobile hitting my body. The echoes create the same sensation that I get when I am standing too close to the powerful speakers during a concert. Everything slows down by a fraction of a second while experiencing narrowed vision and the discomfort of being under bright lights. It feels like I am a vampire who is exposed to sunlight. I wished I could puke due to my squesmish stomach, but all I could churn out is some thick, white fluid which I suspect was some digested medication that I took half an hour ago.

Now you know why I stopped my coffee intake? Don't ask me why I don't drink coffee anymore.